Can you look me in the eye?

Can you tell me why you hurt me?

How was I to blame for you being weak?

How was it my fault you took a cowards route and broke the vows we made together?

How am I any less the person I was when you married me,now because you cheated?


I must have been the worthless one for you to leave me that way, to tell me that it is my fault you were less than a man. You took all my faith all my trust and you shattered it on a rock like I was a piece of used up garbage and not a living creature, you destroyed in one act what had taken me years to rebuild.

You had it so bad being loved and adored and treated like the most important person in my world even to the extent of sacrificing to you the one person who you know meant almost as much to me as you.

You say you love me and I know you believe that but I dont believe you and never will again.

How could you build me up and love me enough to help me through one of the most terrifying ordeals of my life to do in my eyes almost the same thing. You didnt rape me physically, but emotionally you broke my spirit, you destroyed my faith, and you raped me of my trust.

Some days I hate you. I think the love for you died all those years ago.

Can you look me in the eye?

Can you face the woman I am now?

Can you stand it because I am building my esteem back?

Can you face it that I am a good caring loving person?

Can you face it that I am not a nobody I am a survivor?

Can you stand the fact that you were wrong when you said no one would ever care or love me?

I am Mary and I am the woman God wanted me to be and I will never be the above woman again.

God blessed me with a beautiful little boy and I will teach him to treasure and honor and never destroy a woman the way you have. He will learn by my example not by yours.