You made me cry today.
Not because I have talked to you, but because I saw a stupid Bear.
When is this hold you have over me going to die, how many more ways can i cut your heart out of my heart and destroy everything that reminds me of you.
I have come to the stage of pure hatred where you are concerned and I dont shed a tear because of hating you. Like I should, as I was always taught when doing others right hating is not allowed or an option.
How do I tell my mother that in loving you, you made me hate you with all that is left of my heart. You have destroyed me in every way possible and seeing you rot in hell would not sooth the pain.
I will over come this pain and I will move past you.
You dont deserve my tears my rage or my hatred but they are still all yours.
So enjoy your victory, cause pretty soon it will be your last and you wont have this hold on me any longer.
I will continue to treat others with love respect and know that even though you tried to destroy every one of my friendships, there are six who said screw you Steven Johnson and today they are still with me picking up the pieces you chewed up and spit out and telling me that I do matter and that I am not a fool.
Bears need to stay in the forest and dwell in the world of humans no longer.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Goodbye
with the ease of a sparrow dying on a wire you said goodbye.
You broke every promise you ever made.
It was no longer a matter of the feelings being wrong, it is the anger the bitterness the tears and the horror to discover the truth.
The truth of you being a pathetic coward and liar like every other liar who has crossed my path. You gave me empty promises and lies.
Empty words to make YOU seem bigger and better, when in reality you are just a shriveled shell of a fool. Bitterness runs your pathetic existence and hatred is not even an option for me. All I feel is pity.
Pity because I allowed you into my world, I allowed you into my heart and I allowed you into my families heart. I allowed you to rip me in half and stomp me like shit on the ground and I allowed you to treat me like I was less than what I am.
Mr T once said I pity the fool. Well I was that fool.
No longer
You are gone from my life and will never get the chance to feel my ears and heart with you lies ever again.
You are a pathetic worthless piece of waste who has no reason in this world except to torture good honest people.You destroy friendships out of jealousy and had I not been smarter than you, you would have destroyed my family out of your bitterness and your jealousy.
Mark these words Steven Johnson, You are nothing more to me now than a painful memory that will make me cry for months, not out of love but out of embarrassment.A painful reminder of once again being taken advantage of by a man.
You will no longer have the right to use me You no longer have the right for my tears, my joys, my sorrow, my anything.
I write this to clear my anger cause you no longer even have that right.
The things you said and did in my darkest hour I could never do to another human being and that is what makes me better than you, because even though I loved you and would have moved the world had you asked, in the end I kept my promises my word and my hearts vow.
GOODBYE FOREVER, THE DOOR IS SHUT ON BEAR AND THE FOREST WILL RECLAIM YOUR SORRY EXISTENCE. THE IS NO ROOM IN THE REAL WORLD MY WORLD FOR TRASH LIKE YOU.
BE GONE BEAR
DARKEN MY HEART NO MORE
You broke every promise you ever made.
It was no longer a matter of the feelings being wrong, it is the anger the bitterness the tears and the horror to discover the truth.
The truth of you being a pathetic coward and liar like every other liar who has crossed my path. You gave me empty promises and lies.
Empty words to make YOU seem bigger and better, when in reality you are just a shriveled shell of a fool. Bitterness runs your pathetic existence and hatred is not even an option for me. All I feel is pity.
Pity because I allowed you into my world, I allowed you into my heart and I allowed you into my families heart. I allowed you to rip me in half and stomp me like shit on the ground and I allowed you to treat me like I was less than what I am.
Mr T once said I pity the fool. Well I was that fool.
No longer
You are gone from my life and will never get the chance to feel my ears and heart with you lies ever again.
You are a pathetic worthless piece of waste who has no reason in this world except to torture good honest people.You destroy friendships out of jealousy and had I not been smarter than you, you would have destroyed my family out of your bitterness and your jealousy.
Mark these words Steven Johnson, You are nothing more to me now than a painful memory that will make me cry for months, not out of love but out of embarrassment.A painful reminder of once again being taken advantage of by a man.
You will no longer have the right to use me You no longer have the right for my tears, my joys, my sorrow, my anything.
I write this to clear my anger cause you no longer even have that right.
The things you said and did in my darkest hour I could never do to another human being and that is what makes me better than you, because even though I loved you and would have moved the world had you asked, in the end I kept my promises my word and my hearts vow.
GOODBYE FOREVER, THE DOOR IS SHUT ON BEAR AND THE FOREST WILL RECLAIM YOUR SORRY EXISTENCE. THE IS NO ROOM IN THE REAL WORLD MY WORLD FOR TRASH LIKE YOU.
BE GONE BEAR
DARKEN MY HEART NO MORE
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