Trust

Trust is an amazing thing, it is the one constant in any relationship. Without trust in your life what is really there.

I have learned trust is an enemy and it is a friend, it can break your heart and it can make your heart sing, it can take you to new heights and it can destroy the very foundation of your world.

Today talking to Bear he reminded me that although I have been betrayed by trust in the past he was not going anywhere. In my state of not trusting I was developing panic attacks over my friends not being online when I got on and although in my mind I knew they are near by my heart was feeling lost and abandoned. And although an irrational fear a fear just the same.

Trust is hard for me and an issue I struggle with daily. A lot of times I have to be told to get my head out of my ass and stop thinking everyone is going to hurt me.

I work daily to improve this issue and the thought of believing and truly turning my faith over to another human being is so monumental to me it takes my breath away. Each day with the love I have been given and the love shown to me daily, I am growing and learning that not everyone is the same and that when promised to always be there they truly are.

Grow strong with me as the best is yet to be.