Where am I

At a stage , cant find the door to let me out, can feel the chains keeping me in.

Do I stay? Do I go?

I feel a fool now so healing has begun, trust not broken yet not delivered as promised. Guilty of trusty yet being betrayed. I am angry I am hurt I am MAD.

I am Mad at me for letting you turn me, turn me into the one thing I never was a fool,I cant hurt you by saying goodbye so i get hurt by letting you stay. A fool who gave you the one thing she never should have. A fool for believing pretty words and though never wanted anything more than my friend, gained more than I knew I needed.

I gained the knowledge that I am weak I am human and I am a fool.

I gave you trust and I lost you by believing you.

I sit and wonder why is Mary like this now. How can one thing one person effect me so? the answer I don't have.

I know you love me I know you care and I know you aren't going anywhere I just don't know how to make you see that all I need is the you you were. I don't need 24 hours a day, I don't need alot all I ask is the you be who you were.

I don't express my pain anymore. I cant bear the hollow sound it makes on empty ears.

So i sit and wonder where I am and who I have become.

The thing I need to say is goodbye, but it won't happen, I know the real you and I know you are there, I just don't know where I am.