Another year

Another year
Another birthday

Today is my 46th birthday, 46 man that seems impossible. Where did the time and years go I look back and see my past and my mistakes. i look at now and see my life and loves and i look ahead and see a distant horizon waiting to be filled. Filled with many years of love laughter and tears.

I remember as a child birthdays meant a trip out of town to the Ponderosa for dinner, raised by a single mom taking care of eight kids this was a big production for her and I remember on one of those trips after the blizzard of 78 getting so sick we were at the emergency room the rest of the night with food poisoning.

My first birthday as a mother was spent at the Sirloin Stockade surrounded by people I didnt like in my life but not even seeing them as the greatest joy was in my arms stealing mashy taters and mac and cheese lol he was 7 mos old at the time.

Today has been spent with Jeff and Dylan by my side with a special dinner and a cake baked with eager little hands and a dad worrying that he will poison it a hes never made a cake before. I am sure it will be the best cake ever made.

I woke this morning to typing, Jeff had figured out turning on the computer finding the browser and finding and accessing his facebook account which i usually pull up for him where he left me a birthday wish, made me tear up at how hard he worked for that one .. All day was spent receiving birthday greetings from complete strangers who I have never met. People who took the time to say Happy birthday.

I dont know what the birthdays of tomorrow will bring but as long as Jeff and Dylan are by my side they will be the best birthdays that will ever be.

Year 45 has been a hard year for Jeff and I but a prayer to god and a wish of peace and the acts of love bring hope that year 46 has begun with peace love and joy and hopefully last all the year round.

Jeff I love you and I will love you til death us do part.Thank you for making my birthday one of the best i have ever had.